Friday, 10 June 2011
ANOTHER DAY WITH MUM
Fourth day in a row I've had to shake myself awake and go to Mum's in the morning. It upsets my whole system when I have to set my schedule to someone else's timetable day after day. Today Mum has a carer come at 11 am and she helps Mum with showering, particularly rubbing moisturising lotion on her back. We have a new, younger woman and we all have to get used to it.. I have to show her the ropes, Mum is not always clear or good at expressing what she wants. On the other hand she always lets Jay and I know what displeases here.
I will be out of my comfort zone. It's not easy to tell someone what they should be doing and how to do it in front of Mum who still has all her marbles and doesn't like to think she cannot handle a situation. I wish we had trained people but these carers are only given rudimentary instructions.
I am procrastinating right now because I do not want to go. I do not want to drive the car in the rain, over the hill and we are getting fairly heavy rain. I do not want to stand in my mother's house giving a stranger instructions. I am struggling to look after me let alone see that Mum's needs are met. I cannot delay getting organised much longer. As soon as I post this I will have to 'suck it up' and get on my way.
Mum has gout in her wrist so there's not much she can do today.
So far I've kept to my plan but there will not be a walk today and I'm trying to think through my food so that I can manage without going way off plan. I haven't lost any significant weight but I have decided weight loss is a bonus this week. Sticking to my plan and establishing a routine that will see me through days like today is more important than fussing about how many calories I am consuming.
9 am and I have no enthusiasm for this day. It can only get better ...... hopefully.