A few notes to end the year. 2010 will all be over in less than 45 minutes in New Zealand.
This is a BIG PARTY night but John is already asleep and I am on my way to bed. I love parties. I love people but somehow this has all got lost in the last few years.
If 2011 holds nothing more for me than new enthusiasm for life I will be happy. I'm not the person I should be. One could blame old age but something else has happened. It's as if someone came along and extinguished my spark, put out the flame. I don't like the person I am now. She seems dull and boring. There are moments when the wonderful, brilliant, bright, funny, spunky, effervescent me comes through but on the whole I'm lost.
I want the real Me back. I know when things went black and I've slowly been able to remove much of the darkness but too much remains.
Ann H. has written a post today which describes what has happened to me. Ripples going backwards.
If nothing else 2011 will be a year of healing and restoration.
I can't wait to see how it all comes together.
No champagne but I'll drink from the well of Living Water that Jesus made available.
Here's to 2011.
Here's to relighting my Flame.
Have another drink.