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Monday, May 17, 2010

TIME TO FOCUS, UNDO THE DAMAGE AND GET BACK INTO MY PROGRAM


The last two weeks have taken their toll on my weight loss and fitness aspirations. I have been working my program but it was all fairly fragile. After all the years of watching my weight, whether it was going up and down or in maintenance mode, and stressing about being overweight, whether or not I was, and then my more recent determined plans to change my life forever, I knew it wouldn't take much to undermine my efforts.

The 'nothing much' was in reality a major series of events that I had no control over. I could have continued eating and exercising to plan and some people would have succeeded in that but for me it was enough to survive each day as well as I could. I think it is remarkable that I've come through with a 3 pound gain and am able to re-focus on my plan. Many times in the past I would have continued eating badly for another few days or weeks or months. I could call this an NSV but since there has been a weight gain it doesn't sit well with me.

A lot of the credit for my ability to remain on focus must go to my husband. TWJ has continued to be my rock through it all and most importantly has prepared my breakfast smoothie at the same time each day. I am so thankful to him. Our day to day routine has been seriously challenged and I no longer cope with changes as well as I once might have. He has provided stability.

For those who are new readers, we had plans to celebrate my mother's 95th birthday on May 5th with a small family luncheon and a larger 'Open House' on the following Saturday. On Tuesday, May 4th, Jenny, one of my sisters in law was declared brain dead after a nasty car accident the previous evening. Our plans were modified and we came through it all as best we could. After two weeks my first thought when I wake up each morning remains, "I'll never hear Jenny's voice again."

When younger I thrived on doing things differently every day. A certain routine was enforced by TWJ's work, the children's school times etc. but I have never wanted to be bound by routine. I saw routine as a killer of spontaneity. I loved having the freedom to act on impulse, the whim of the moment. I'm still that person but age is changing my ability to cope. I have to plan, think through things so as not to over extend myself. I need a basic routine. I need to have order in my life. I take longer to create order after a chaotic period. I feel as though I'm getting boring but I have to change the way I do things to survive.

I don't like admitting age is changing the way I live but there is a reality I must face. I will be 71 in a few short weeks. In today's world that is still young. Many my age are vigorous, participating in sport, still competitive, and involved in all kinds of social activities, even holding down jobs. Bucket lists and adventures have become the norm. There are few limits to what we can do as we grow older but we do have to plan with a different emphasis.

Weight loss and fitness are no exception. I can still lose weight, almost as easily as when younger. I've proved this to myself. I can still exercise, but I must plan so that I don't over-extend my self on any one day or week. Over-extending myself leads to 'crash and burn' and it takes a long time for me to pick up the pieces these days. My recovery times are lengthy both physically and mentally.

Age has some benefits. I know myself better than at any time previously. I understand more about how my body functions, I know what works, what doesn't and what is worth experimenting with. There is one thing I miss. I haven't found anyone else in my age group who has picked themselves up and changed their life from obese to slim, from couch potato to active, from flabby, ugly to shapely muscles. My peers in this journey are all many years younger. I'm so glad to see them change their lives while young. Their wisdom and experience all help me but I cannot follow them. There is a sense in which I am on my own. I'm here not to prove anything, because I don't think there is anything to prove about weight loss and fitness, but to demonstrate that what is feasible in theory works in practice.

I am so grateful to this world of weight loss and fitness Bloggers. They encourage me to do what is best for me.

I am a pioneer. I am a woman on a mission to change an aging fat body into a healthy, fit, slim body.

6 comments:

Margie M. said...

Aweome post MargieAnne. Your insight into your own life and goals is amazing. Have a great week ahead.

Sam&Donna Weibel said...

Don't fret Margie, you will do just great, time will tell. Sam is a big man and he will fight his weight all his life. Donna on the other hand is the same size since we married 30plus years ago. In fact since her heart episode last year she has lost weight and her doctor's are on her to gain weight, some of us are luckier than others. You will attain your goal, just have confidence, Always remember good things happen to good people. I look forward to reading more about your country and hope you get your wish for an RV visit to the USA. Be safe out there. Sam & Donna.

Trisaratops said...

I'm sorry for your loss. I know you can re-focus your efforts again! Best to you.

Chibi said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, MargieAnne. You're all in my thoughts and prayers. <3

kaitlin said...

I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your sister in law. Hang in there. Thanks for the comment on my blog from yesterday. The pain is pretty bad still, but it is so nice to have support from my friends and readers. =)

Traci said...

I'm so encouraged by your drive to keep going. Great blog.