Tuesday, 16 February 2010


After after many airless humid days this is refreshing. I've had to find a jacket to warm me up. It will be so good for the garden. Now I will really need to spend an extended time weeding before we go away next Monday.

Today I have a plan recorded here and will up-date as I go along just to keep me in check. This will be an extremely boring post for any visitors.

Breakfast:- smoothie
Snack 1 about 10.30am plain Greek yoghurt, probably about 1/5 cup

Lunch:- egg salad made with iceberg lettuce 2 boiled eggs and vinaigrette
Snack 2 about 3 pm yoghurt

Dinner:- cold roast beef and silverbeet
snack 3 about 8 pm yoghurt but only if I really feel hungry.

Drinking. Water x 4
black coffee x 2
tea x 1

Exercise. aprox 20 minutes or until I've completed 4km on cross-trainer.

Plan B going out this evening and re-arranged the day somewhat. Swapped lunch for tea and no snacks. No exercise. Blaaaaa! Not enough water.

Reading:- 2-3 chapters in my Lean For Life book. *Done*

This is what I wrote 3 years ago when I began to deal with my weight in a more determined manner. Sadly I have not been faithful to my determination. The good news is that if you never give up there is a very good expectation that you will win.

written on my Blogpage at SFL on Jan 16th 2007

"GUTTED - Got on D's scales this morning to find they register me at 114.6 kg (252 lbs)

If that isn't a reality check and a serious warning not to waste more time then I'm a great big fool.

D got me his Lean For Life book out so am doing the preliminary reading today. I have worked it out that if I kept to the programme as it is descibed it will take me at least 60 weeks to reach my target weight. That seems a very long time especially at my age. I would be nearly 69 when I finish but if I do nothing I will weigh more and I will be less and less active and then I will be really unwell. I have reached a point when I must do this or become more and more unfit every week.

It is my choice so why is it so hard to make the sensible one?

Even if I have not reached my target weight by March 17th 2008 I will be a lot healthier and slimmer and able to move more freely. I will not be battling the same degree of depression and I will not be drowning in excuses, procrastinaton and all the other negatives that come with living an unhealthy lifestyle.

I will feel happier, less ashamed of myself. I will feel good in my clothes and be proud of how I look. I will know that I have taken proper control of my life and changed the one thing I can change, what goes in my mouth.

If For any reason I have left it so late that I will never get full benefit of weight loss and increased fitness, ie I still have some weight related health issues, I will know that at least I did something to mitigate the situation. I am heading for a very unpleasant old age as things are. I really have no choice except to make the change and I know this programme works well to improve every aspect of life and is compatible with all my spiritual values.

It just seems a so hard to make a permanent change. I have failed so many times because I did not have the persistence to see it through. I can break this down into 6 week time frames which are repeated until I reach my target weight. Surely I can do this well for 6 weeks and then be ready to do it again for six weeks until .....

I guess that right now along with the challenge of starting, making the change, is the fear of failure.

Fear of Failure

I used to be so bold and not care about this but now I have to face this fear. I am afraid of starting and not continuing until finished and so losing all the benefits once again. But .... who knows, this might be the time I don't fail. This might be the time I pick myself up before serious damage is done and continue through to the finish line. I will never know unless I start.

Today is Tuesday. I am already doing the 3 day preparation so I will begin the semi-fast 3 days on Friday. That means the first day of the week will be Friday. I have always chosen Monday so will see if this makes it harder to get my head around.

Today I commit myself to starting the first 6 week cycle on Friday."

I want to cry as read that. Today I re-commit to the program that works for me. Surely I can do this for 6 weeks even though we will be away for 3 of them. It was my S.I. sons who introduced me so plenty of support there. I expect to be well under the 100 kg/220 lbs on our return. Next recorded weigh in will be Thursday March 17th. Yesterday I weighed exactly 105 kg/ 231 lbs.

This time Monday is my start day.

Will be back later.
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