Good memories and some beauty go a long way. I need to love me. The Bellingrath Gardens near Mobile Alabama, Spring, 2005.
I need a new head. When things get a bit hectic I go into 'survival mode.' But it's not healthy and long term could be called 'killer mode.' Why do I let my head do this to me?
I stop tracking. I head for the coffee and that means cappuccinos with lots of sugar ... for energy you understand.... If you don't not to worry, nor do I! The next thing is bread with lots of butter and filling. After that my brain is dead and anything goes.
It all began on Friday night at 10.30 pm when I came home satisfied but tired, hungry and wired so I ate a pile of egg sandwiches. I had to survive my 4 hour shifts at work Sat & Sun evenings. Today I'm trying to pull back and undo the damage but there is only one way. Cold Turkey. How many times a month do I have to do this? When will I get through the demanding days without resorting to 'Survival Food' that kills my plans?
I guess the good thing is that it is less than 3 days but why do I let it happen at all? Is eating healthy food all the time really that hard? It should be so easy since my body loves me when I eat right. I need a new head. The damage is done in my head.
First I think ..... I'm tired,
I've been good all day. this won't do any harm, just once.
This food needs to be eaten by ME!
I need to relax
I'm hungry, (sometimes true)
I can eat this and be back on program tomorrow
Hard week/busy days coming, I need energy now!
There are probably a hundred million more excuses hidden in my Stupid Brain. The Brain that will not accept that anything with wheat or gluten doesn't like my body and does mean things. The Brain that will not accept that my body loves the LFL style of food. The Brain that hates me for taking coffee and added sugar away from it. The Brain that wants to sit about instead of getting up and moving.
Now I do have another Brain. The sensible, healthy Wise Brain that knows what is best. But do I listen to it? Certainly not nearly as often as I should.
10 am Monday. Wise Brain says ......
I am going Cold Turkey for 24 hours.
No coffee, No sugar. No bread. No cakes or biscuits/cookies.
Today I will eat protein foods, fruit & veges. I will spread 3 meals and 2-3 snacks over the next 10 hours. I will go to the gym. I will do some housework. I will be healthy today.
Already I can hear Stupid Brain saying, "Oh Yeah!" but I'm not listening.
I'm off to obey Wise Brain. Wish me well.